Find Your Courage 4/5
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write_my_dreamsTitle: Find Your Courage
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write_my_dreamsPairing: Asagi x Tsunehito
Genre: AU, humor, fluff
Warning/Disclaimer: Nothing to warn about. D, unfortunately, doesn't belong to me.
Rating: PG
Chapters: 4/5
Summary: Ruiza is tired of Asagi dragging him to the same cafe everyday just to see Tsunehito. So he decides to break the routine and tell Tsunehito how Asagi feels about him.
Author's Comment: My Tsunehito muse got demanding (same with Ruiza) so I decided to go back and finish this. I'd started this chapter at the end of last month but didn't get far. I feel like this chapter is pretty cheesy... but it's hard to avoid that with couples getting together.
Today was one of the many days where Tsunehito wondered if it was possible to die of boredom. The morning rush was over so he’d been struggling to keep busy for the last two hours. His boss kept finding dull tasks for him to do—refilling napkins, cleaning the tables… The occasional customer coming in broke up the monotony, but there weren’t enough of them to keep Tsunehito occupied. And, since Asagi and Ruiza hadn’t come that morning, it was unlikely they would show up. Tsunehito was so used to seeing them that their absence had been sorely noted. Especially Asagi’s. They’d gone on a few dates since going to the bar together. Asagi was… adorable. So sweet, so awkward at times but then he’d catch Tsunehito off guard with some unexpected confidences. They had yet to have the “we like going on dates and I want to be in a relationship with you” talk, but Tsunehito knew it was coming. They enjoyed the other’s company, wanted to spend time with each other, he liked kissing Asagi… those were the signs.
Tsunehito wondered how much Asagi would blush if the barista asked him to make their relationship official. Probably turn so red that he’d put a rose to shame. Wouldn’t that be sweet. Then he’d stammer out a yes…
His bored musings were interrupted as Ruiza walked into the café. Tsunehito immediately straightened. Finally, someone to talk to! And the timing was perfect: his break started in five minutes. His heart sank a little as he realized that it was just Ruiza. Where was Asagi? Maybe he was in a meeting. Tsunehito blinked as he noticed the blonde had a tote bag with the name “Synrome” written on it. A band tote bag?
Ruiza grinned as he saw Tsunehito looking at him then raised a hand to wave. He walked up to the counter, leaning his elbow on it. “Hi, Tsune. Asagi says he’s sorry that he couldn’t come in this morning. It’s been a busy day… we’ve had a lot of meetings. I stopped by to say hi though. And give you a little present.” He smirked as he held up the bag.
Tsunehito’s curiosity was piqued. What was in that bag? “Thank you. Are you getting food and a drink or did you just come over to say hi…?”
“I have time to have my coffee,” Ruiza said. “Could you make me a vanilla latte? And I’ll have a blueberry muffin. Oh, and that chocolate chip cookie.”
Tsunehito nodded then started preparing Ruiza’s latte. Once the blonde had paid, it was time for Tsunehito to go on break. He told Ruiza that and they moved to a table in the corner.
“So you know how Asagi and I used to be in a band together?”
“Yeah, he doesn’t really talk about it though.” Tsunehito just knew that Asagi found his previous looks embarrassing.
Ruiza smiled wickedly. “It’s time you learned about that side of him.” He pushed the bag at Tsunehito. The barista opened it. Inside were two albums, four singles, and a photo album. Tsunehito gaped at the pictures. He barely recognized his almost boyfriend! Asagi in various leg flaunting looks, radiating confidence on the stage, arm around an equally sexily-dressed Ruiza…
“Nice legs,” Tsunehito said, glancing up. He could imagine the blonde wearing sexy stage costumes but… he still had a difficult time picturing Asagi in these clothes. How had he gone from confident vocalist in revealing clothes to the shy, awkward owner of a record label?
“Thanks,” Ruiza giggled. “So what do you think of Asagi?”
“I’m having a hard time accepting that this,” he turned the album so Ruiza could see the picture he was looking at. Asagi sitting in a chair dressed in the tiniest shorts that Tsunehito had ever seen. He kind of… looked like a slutty version of Mononoke-hime. But he looked gorgeous, “is Asagi.”
Ruiza chuckled softly. “He’s got a wild side under his awkward exterior.”
“Clearly!” Tsunehito flipped through the rest of the pictures.
“I like to make copies of the posters and put them up in the office to make him squirm,” Ruiza said, snickering as he raised his latte.
Tsunehito smiled. Ruiza, he’d found, could be quite the brat. But a loveable brat. Asagi obviously adored him and couldn’t stay irritated at him for long. “I can only imagine his embarrassment.”
“I’ve seen him turn shades of red I didn’t know existed.”
Tsunehito couldn’t help but giggle at that. “Poor Asagi.”
Ruiza gave him an angelic smile. “You can keep all that stuff if you want to.”
Tsunehito’s eyes widened. “Really? But… it’s yours…”
“It’s yours now,” Ruiza replied. “I have duplicates of everything at home anyway. Oh, you should ask Asagi to autograph a really sexy picture of himself. I’m sure the look on his face would be priceless.”
Tsunehito snorted. “I think he’d be too humiliated to look at me for the rest of the week.”
“Mm, probably.” Ruiza set his latte down then fixed Tsunehito with a look. “So… what do you think of him?” The playful look had vanished from his face. Though Ruiza liked to tease Asagi, his happiness was obviously important to the blonde.
“I really like him,” Tsunehito said softly. “He’s sweet, he makes me happy, and I want to see him again. I missed both of you when you didn’t show up this morning.” He tucked the photo album back into the tour bag. He’d listen to the CDs when he got home from work. “And I really would like to be in a relationship with him.”
Ruiza smiled. “He would love to hear that.”
“I was picturing how much he’d blush if I told him.”
“He would,” Ruiza chuckled. “But he’d be happy. And he’d get out of the office too. Some days I have to drag him out of there. He’s been getting out more though. You’re good for him, Tsune.” Ruiza poked at his coffee cup. “Just… don’t hurt him, okay? He’s a gentle soul.”
Tsunehito sighed softly. “I can’t promise I’ll never hurt him. You know a relationship doesn’t work like that.” Every couple, no matter how happy and in love they were, had fights. There was no such thing as a perfect relationship. “I can promise that I’ll do my best to make him happy though. And I know I’d feel awful if I ever hurt him.” Asagi was so sweet.
Ruiza, seeming to approve, nodded. “That’s all I can ask for.”
* * *
“Ruiza gave me something yesterday,” Tsunehito said as he slipped his hand into Asagi’s. The older man had invited him over to have dinner at his apartment and they’d gone for a walk afterwards in the nearby park. They were headed back to his apartment now.
Asagi blinked. “He did? What did he give you?”
Tsunehito smirked as he squeezed Asagi’s hand. “Stuff from your Syndrome days.” He chuckled as the other man, as expected, turned crimson. Asagi ducked his head so he could hide under his long hair.
“What… what exactly did Rui give you?”
“Some CDs and a photo album. I’m impressed; I never knew you had such sexy legs.”
“Tsune!” The barista couldn’t help but laugh at Asagi’s mortified squeak. “That was… that was a while ago,” he muttered. “I was younger then.”
Tsunehito stopped walking then moved in front of Asagi. He brushed his hair back then framed his face. Asagi sometimes complained about being old, but Tsunehito had never thought of him in that way. “So? You’re still gorgeous.
“But I’m ten years older than you.”
“I don’t care.” Tsunehito looked up at Asagi. The other man was still flustered and his flushed skin was warm beneath Tsunehito’s
hands. “I listened to the CDs,” he said softly. “It was the first time I’d heard you sing before. You have such a beautiful voice.”
Asagi took one of the hands framing his face, gently tugging Tsunehito forward so they could start walking again. The barista followed him. He… probably should have waited to have this conversation until they were back in Asagi’s apartment. “Thank you. Did you like the CDs?”
“I did.” Tsunehito squeezed his hand. He could tell Asagi’s voice had developed since the time of the recording but the voice had still been beautiful, passionate, and strong. Asagi truly had a gift. “I actually uploaded them to my computer and put them on my phone.”
That made Asagi blush again. “Really?”
Tsunehito nodded. “I told you I liked them.” He wanted to know more about Asagi’s musical career. If more CDs had survived from his previous bands, if Syndrome had more albums (or, better yet, a live DVD so he could actually see Asagi’s passion for himself). “And I like you.” The words were at the tip of his tongue but a sudden hesitation had come over him. He’d work up the courage to ask Asagi if he was ready for a relationship once they were in Asagi’s apartment.
* * *
Asagi let go of Tsunehito’s hand so he could unlock the door. He pushed the door open, holding it for Tsunehito then walking in after him. One of the cats was sprawled out in the entryway. The cat got up to rub against Asagi’s legs, meowing loudly until Asagi picked him up. Tsunehito, by now, was aware that he would be ignored when he and Asagi first stepped into his apartment.
“Someone missed you.” Tsunehito petted the cat then leaned down to take off his shoes.
“I guess so.” Asagi cuddled the cat against his chest. Finally he set him down so he could remove his own shoes. Then he took Tsunehito’s hand again and brought him into the apartment. For some reason, a wave of insecurity swept over him. Why was he feeling insecure all of a sudden? They obviously liked each other so this shouldn’t be an issue! “Tsune?” Asagi asked softly. “Are you all right? You’ve been awfully quiet…”
Tsunehito started. “I’m fine.” He reached up to stroke Asagi’s hair with his free hand. “I was just thinking about something.” He took a breath. “We’ve been on a few dates now and I really do like spending time with you. I’d like… this to be a relationship. Not just us going on dates.”
Asagi reacted exactly as Tsunehito had predicted he would. He blushed furiously then stammered out that he would like the same.
Tsunehito immediately relaxed. “I’m glad,” he whispered. He smiled as Asagi tugged him closer, slipping his arms around his waist. “Ruiza asked me to make you happy.” Well, not quite in those exact words. He’d asked Tsunehito not to hurt him… then made it clear that Asagi’s happiness was what he wanted.
“You do make me happy.” Asagi leaned in to kiss him. The kiss startled out slow and gentle but soon deepened. Tsunehito reached up to bury his fingers in Asagi’s thick hair, pressing even closer to him. The black-haired man pulled back when he had to breathe then gave Tsunehito a little smile. “I’ll make sure to have more time for you. I know I’m a workaholic…”
Tsunehito laughed. “You are, but that just shows that you’re dedicated to your work. And I know you’ll be busy. You have a record label to run after all. So I understand if you don’t always have time for me.”
“I’m glad you’re understanding.” Asagi sighed softly as he rubbed Tsunehito’s back. “Others… get frustrated.”
Others. Others as in previous lovers? Other friends? It wasn’t important though. Tsunehito shook his head then kissed Asagi again. He pulled back, looking up at them. “I’m not them so I’m not frustrated. It’ll be boring if you don’t have time to show up at the café and if you don’t have time for me all week then I will get irritated.” He toyed with Asagi’s hair. “But that’s just because I’ll miss you.”
Asagi laughed. “I’ve never been so busy with work that I don’t have time for anyone for an entire week. I’ll always be able to make time for you.” He pulled Tsunehito back into another kiss. Tsunehito kissed him back. They could talk more later… right now he just wanted to kiss his new lover.
Notes
1) I'm really tired and decided to post this since I'd probably just feel the urge to delete it otherwise. Been having a hard time with writing in the last couple days. Everything sounds awful...
2) Don't expect Chapter 5 to be out quickly. I'm still figuring out a timeline for this series
3) There will be a time skip in Chapter 5 where they've already been in a relationship for several months
6) This is the sexy outfit I envisioned for Asagi. It's one of his looks from Syndrome. There's also a cute picture of Ruiza hugging him that was from Ultimate Lover
Tsunehito wondered how much Asagi would blush if the barista asked him to make their relationship official. Probably turn so red that he’d put a rose to shame. Wouldn’t that be sweet. Then he’d stammer out a yes…
His bored musings were interrupted as Ruiza walked into the café. Tsunehito immediately straightened. Finally, someone to talk to! And the timing was perfect: his break started in five minutes. His heart sank a little as he realized that it was just Ruiza. Where was Asagi? Maybe he was in a meeting. Tsunehito blinked as he noticed the blonde had a tote bag with the name “Synrome” written on it. A band tote bag?
Ruiza grinned as he saw Tsunehito looking at him then raised a hand to wave. He walked up to the counter, leaning his elbow on it. “Hi, Tsune. Asagi says he’s sorry that he couldn’t come in this morning. It’s been a busy day… we’ve had a lot of meetings. I stopped by to say hi though. And give you a little present.” He smirked as he held up the bag.
Tsunehito’s curiosity was piqued. What was in that bag? “Thank you. Are you getting food and a drink or did you just come over to say hi…?”
“I have time to have my coffee,” Ruiza said. “Could you make me a vanilla latte? And I’ll have a blueberry muffin. Oh, and that chocolate chip cookie.”
Tsunehito nodded then started preparing Ruiza’s latte. Once the blonde had paid, it was time for Tsunehito to go on break. He told Ruiza that and they moved to a table in the corner.
“So you know how Asagi and I used to be in a band together?”
“Yeah, he doesn’t really talk about it though.” Tsunehito just knew that Asagi found his previous looks embarrassing.
Ruiza smiled wickedly. “It’s time you learned about that side of him.” He pushed the bag at Tsunehito. The barista opened it. Inside were two albums, four singles, and a photo album. Tsunehito gaped at the pictures. He barely recognized his almost boyfriend! Asagi in various leg flaunting looks, radiating confidence on the stage, arm around an equally sexily-dressed Ruiza…
“Nice legs,” Tsunehito said, glancing up. He could imagine the blonde wearing sexy stage costumes but… he still had a difficult time picturing Asagi in these clothes. How had he gone from confident vocalist in revealing clothes to the shy, awkward owner of a record label?
“Thanks,” Ruiza giggled. “So what do you think of Asagi?”
“I’m having a hard time accepting that this,” he turned the album so Ruiza could see the picture he was looking at. Asagi sitting in a chair dressed in the tiniest shorts that Tsunehito had ever seen. He kind of… looked like a slutty version of Mononoke-hime. But he looked gorgeous, “is Asagi.”
Ruiza chuckled softly. “He’s got a wild side under his awkward exterior.”
“Clearly!” Tsunehito flipped through the rest of the pictures.
“I like to make copies of the posters and put them up in the office to make him squirm,” Ruiza said, snickering as he raised his latte.
Tsunehito smiled. Ruiza, he’d found, could be quite the brat. But a loveable brat. Asagi obviously adored him and couldn’t stay irritated at him for long. “I can only imagine his embarrassment.”
“I’ve seen him turn shades of red I didn’t know existed.”
Tsunehito couldn’t help but giggle at that. “Poor Asagi.”
Ruiza gave him an angelic smile. “You can keep all that stuff if you want to.”
Tsunehito’s eyes widened. “Really? But… it’s yours…”
“It’s yours now,” Ruiza replied. “I have duplicates of everything at home anyway. Oh, you should ask Asagi to autograph a really sexy picture of himself. I’m sure the look on his face would be priceless.”
Tsunehito snorted. “I think he’d be too humiliated to look at me for the rest of the week.”
“Mm, probably.” Ruiza set his latte down then fixed Tsunehito with a look. “So… what do you think of him?” The playful look had vanished from his face. Though Ruiza liked to tease Asagi, his happiness was obviously important to the blonde.
“I really like him,” Tsunehito said softly. “He’s sweet, he makes me happy, and I want to see him again. I missed both of you when you didn’t show up this morning.” He tucked the photo album back into the tour bag. He’d listen to the CDs when he got home from work. “And I really would like to be in a relationship with him.”
Ruiza smiled. “He would love to hear that.”
“I was picturing how much he’d blush if I told him.”
“He would,” Ruiza chuckled. “But he’d be happy. And he’d get out of the office too. Some days I have to drag him out of there. He’s been getting out more though. You’re good for him, Tsune.” Ruiza poked at his coffee cup. “Just… don’t hurt him, okay? He’s a gentle soul.”
Tsunehito sighed softly. “I can’t promise I’ll never hurt him. You know a relationship doesn’t work like that.” Every couple, no matter how happy and in love they were, had fights. There was no such thing as a perfect relationship. “I can promise that I’ll do my best to make him happy though. And I know I’d feel awful if I ever hurt him.” Asagi was so sweet.
Ruiza, seeming to approve, nodded. “That’s all I can ask for.”
* * *
“Ruiza gave me something yesterday,” Tsunehito said as he slipped his hand into Asagi’s. The older man had invited him over to have dinner at his apartment and they’d gone for a walk afterwards in the nearby park. They were headed back to his apartment now.
Asagi blinked. “He did? What did he give you?”
Tsunehito smirked as he squeezed Asagi’s hand. “Stuff from your Syndrome days.” He chuckled as the other man, as expected, turned crimson. Asagi ducked his head so he could hide under his long hair.
“What… what exactly did Rui give you?”
“Some CDs and a photo album. I’m impressed; I never knew you had such sexy legs.”
“Tsune!” The barista couldn’t help but laugh at Asagi’s mortified squeak. “That was… that was a while ago,” he muttered. “I was younger then.”
Tsunehito stopped walking then moved in front of Asagi. He brushed his hair back then framed his face. Asagi sometimes complained about being old, but Tsunehito had never thought of him in that way. “So? You’re still gorgeous.
“But I’m ten years older than you.”
“I don’t care.” Tsunehito looked up at Asagi. The other man was still flustered and his flushed skin was warm beneath Tsunehito’s
hands. “I listened to the CDs,” he said softly. “It was the first time I’d heard you sing before. You have such a beautiful voice.”
Asagi took one of the hands framing his face, gently tugging Tsunehito forward so they could start walking again. The barista followed him. He… probably should have waited to have this conversation until they were back in Asagi’s apartment. “Thank you. Did you like the CDs?”
“I did.” Tsunehito squeezed his hand. He could tell Asagi’s voice had developed since the time of the recording but the voice had still been beautiful, passionate, and strong. Asagi truly had a gift. “I actually uploaded them to my computer and put them on my phone.”
That made Asagi blush again. “Really?”
Tsunehito nodded. “I told you I liked them.” He wanted to know more about Asagi’s musical career. If more CDs had survived from his previous bands, if Syndrome had more albums (or, better yet, a live DVD so he could actually see Asagi’s passion for himself). “And I like you.” The words were at the tip of his tongue but a sudden hesitation had come over him. He’d work up the courage to ask Asagi if he was ready for a relationship once they were in Asagi’s apartment.
* * *
Asagi let go of Tsunehito’s hand so he could unlock the door. He pushed the door open, holding it for Tsunehito then walking in after him. One of the cats was sprawled out in the entryway. The cat got up to rub against Asagi’s legs, meowing loudly until Asagi picked him up. Tsunehito, by now, was aware that he would be ignored when he and Asagi first stepped into his apartment.
“Someone missed you.” Tsunehito petted the cat then leaned down to take off his shoes.
“I guess so.” Asagi cuddled the cat against his chest. Finally he set him down so he could remove his own shoes. Then he took Tsunehito’s hand again and brought him into the apartment. For some reason, a wave of insecurity swept over him. Why was he feeling insecure all of a sudden? They obviously liked each other so this shouldn’t be an issue! “Tsune?” Asagi asked softly. “Are you all right? You’ve been awfully quiet…”
Tsunehito started. “I’m fine.” He reached up to stroke Asagi’s hair with his free hand. “I was just thinking about something.” He took a breath. “We’ve been on a few dates now and I really do like spending time with you. I’d like… this to be a relationship. Not just us going on dates.”
Asagi reacted exactly as Tsunehito had predicted he would. He blushed furiously then stammered out that he would like the same.
Tsunehito immediately relaxed. “I’m glad,” he whispered. He smiled as Asagi tugged him closer, slipping his arms around his waist. “Ruiza asked me to make you happy.” Well, not quite in those exact words. He’d asked Tsunehito not to hurt him… then made it clear that Asagi’s happiness was what he wanted.
“You do make me happy.” Asagi leaned in to kiss him. The kiss startled out slow and gentle but soon deepened. Tsunehito reached up to bury his fingers in Asagi’s thick hair, pressing even closer to him. The black-haired man pulled back when he had to breathe then gave Tsunehito a little smile. “I’ll make sure to have more time for you. I know I’m a workaholic…”
Tsunehito laughed. “You are, but that just shows that you’re dedicated to your work. And I know you’ll be busy. You have a record label to run after all. So I understand if you don’t always have time for me.”
“I’m glad you’re understanding.” Asagi sighed softly as he rubbed Tsunehito’s back. “Others… get frustrated.”
Others. Others as in previous lovers? Other friends? It wasn’t important though. Tsunehito shook his head then kissed Asagi again. He pulled back, looking up at them. “I’m not them so I’m not frustrated. It’ll be boring if you don’t have time to show up at the café and if you don’t have time for me all week then I will get irritated.” He toyed with Asagi’s hair. “But that’s just because I’ll miss you.”
Asagi laughed. “I’ve never been so busy with work that I don’t have time for anyone for an entire week. I’ll always be able to make time for you.” He pulled Tsunehito back into another kiss. Tsunehito kissed him back. They could talk more later… right now he just wanted to kiss his new lover.
Notes
1) I'm really tired and decided to post this since I'd probably just feel the urge to delete it otherwise. Been having a hard time with writing in the last couple days. Everything sounds awful...
2) Don't expect Chapter 5 to be out quickly. I'm still figuring out a timeline for this series
3) There will be a time skip in Chapter 5 where they've already been in a relationship for several months
6) This is the sexy outfit I envisioned for Asagi. It's one of his looks from Syndrome. There's also a cute picture of Ruiza hugging him that was from Ultimate Lover
