Struggling

[write_my_dreams]

I'm having a hard time concentrating on writing now that my university classes have started up again. I write scenes between classes when I have the time but in general, weekends have become my best chance to write now. So expect future updates from me to be slow. I know they're already slow and I feel bad about that but I need to focus on my education.

As repelling as it is. I'm stressed about my classes as usual. I wake up depressed on Tuesdays and Thursdays and just feel like crying when I do my Japanese homework. I feel like I'm too stupid to be in Japanese 401. But I can carry on conversations with native speakers and while I can't understand everything we could communicate. So I'm usually too upset about my Japanese class to really have the energy to write by the time I get done with all my homework.

And because I feel shitty I had another idea for a fic with Jui for my vampire story. It's going to be bittersweet like the last one with him. Jui is... quite the broken muse. He'll get lots of cuddles from Kisaki and Asagi though. I would like to start that one tomorrow as the ideas are fresh in my head, the inspiration is there, and I tend to feel better if I make someone suffer in writing.

Need to do my homework now *Sigh*

Comments

[airian-reesu.livejournal.com]

If your 401 class was anything like mine, then it really related nothing to what Japanese I used/picked up while I was over there for the summer. It was all translations and writing reports on boring topics and what not (a.k.a. an academic course! yay....) I felt like I was floundering a bit, but I got used to it. (It helped that nearly everyone in the class was at my level or lower for the most part. The 300 level didn't really help us prepare for the 400...)

I suppose my best advice is to hang in there, and give yourself as much time as you can to work on your homework. Trying to do it last minute is....hard.

A place I often went to help with my grammar was www.alc.co.jp. You can look up words and phrases and it'll give you examples in Japanese/English (I think they're translations of actual website or something?). What this did was help me see different parts of grammar in use in context. You can't just take the first example most of the time; you have to study them a bit, see which works best, but this is how I managed to push through those stupid essays sounding halfway intelligent. And I did learn things from here....I've forgotten a good deal, but I did learn....

...It also helped that I took a Technical Japanese class with an awesome teacher the year before, which taught the essay-like writing style. (Of course, my conversational Japanese is quite crappy.... -_- It didn't help that at all...)

Best of luck to you! I'm sure you'll get the hang of it. :)

[write_my_dreams]

Oh that sounds awful. Mine seems like it's real Japanese experience. It's hard to tell what's going on since I've only had three classes thus far. But we have video homework of watching a drama to practice with that and we're not translating boring reports or anything. I'll see what else happens. (Sounds stressful...)

I've been too depressed to do homework until late evening. And by then I'm tired and don't want to do it. I'm trying to be better at time management though. I need to just do homework as soon as I get home from my classes

Thank you for the website, I'll look into that and practice.

Wow, we don't have anything like that at my university.

Thank you, I hope so too *sigh*

[write_my_dreams]

It really isn't. I don't know... at least when I was in Japan and depressed about school, I'd feel better because I could communicate with my Japanese friends. We talk on twitter at least so that's good practice

The idea is coming along well. I just have writer's block again and can't manage to write much

I'll try... I stress too easily about things. It's hard. But I think I need to just take a general break because I'm struggling to write ANYTHING

Thanks *hugs too*