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write_my_dreamsI know that no one reads or cares about my journal (I think kyoselflove is the only one who responds to my entries so I guess I'll write this for you lol) anymore but I am now back in the US. I got back on Saturday but I've been staying the week with my sister. She works in California and home for me is still Michigan. Going to continue my quarter life crisis and stay with my parents. Try to find a job. Pay off my credit card and vacation.
Tomorrow I head back to Michigan... going to be another boring ass day of waiting around in airports and on planes but thinking I should be home by 4 PM my time. And I want to just get unpacked Sunday night so I can have access to my things and can just spend Monday putting things away and doing endless laundry. The latter won't be something so fun though.
I've been an unstable wreck as usual but I am feeling better now that I'm back. When I left Japan after completing my study abroad + 3 weeks travel, it was with mixed feelings. I kind of wanted to go home but I also wanted to stay and try something else. I just couldn't do that because I was out of money. Now this time I was just so fucking ready to be home. I miss going to lives and instores, but I'm not as heartbroken about not being able to do so as I was last time. Really wish I could go back to Japan for Lycaon's last live. I checked Twitter this morning thinking I'll do some creeping and was stunned to find announcements from all of them about how they're stopping Lycaon at the end of the year. I'll have to try to translate their post on their record label's website to see if there's any inclination as to why they're stopping. They all get along well, it's not as if they're out of ideas since they just released Camera Obscure... I'm really sad to be losing one of my favorite bands. I couldn't see anywhere near as many of their lives as I wanted to but at least I've seen 3 and gotten my picture taken with them at an instore. I don't know what they'll do next but I'll support all of them no matter what.
What else... ah, yes. I have a LOT of fanfiction to type up. I would write in my notebook on my breaks at work but would be too tired/stressed/drained to type things up at my apartment. I've made a sizeable dent in my vampire story and then my new ghost series with Mejibray. Plus a few other oneshots. I'm just unsure if I should bother posting given how pretty much no one read my last fic. Makes me wonder if I should just switch back to original work again after all.
Tomorrow I head back to Michigan... going to be another boring ass day of waiting around in airports and on planes but thinking I should be home by 4 PM my time. And I want to just get unpacked Sunday night so I can have access to my things and can just spend Monday putting things away and doing endless laundry. The latter won't be something so fun though.
I've been an unstable wreck as usual but I am feeling better now that I'm back. When I left Japan after completing my study abroad + 3 weeks travel, it was with mixed feelings. I kind of wanted to go home but I also wanted to stay and try something else. I just couldn't do that because I was out of money. Now this time I was just so fucking ready to be home. I miss going to lives and instores, but I'm not as heartbroken about not being able to do so as I was last time. Really wish I could go back to Japan for Lycaon's last live. I checked Twitter this morning thinking I'll do some creeping and was stunned to find announcements from all of them about how they're stopping Lycaon at the end of the year. I'll have to try to translate their post on their record label's website to see if there's any inclination as to why they're stopping. They all get along well, it's not as if they're out of ideas since they just released Camera Obscure... I'm really sad to be losing one of my favorite bands. I couldn't see anywhere near as many of their lives as I wanted to but at least I've seen 3 and gotten my picture taken with them at an instore. I don't know what they'll do next but I'll support all of them no matter what.
What else... ah, yes. I have a LOT of fanfiction to type up. I would write in my notebook on my breaks at work but would be too tired/stressed/drained to type things up at my apartment. I've made a sizeable dent in my vampire story and then my new ghost series with Mejibray. Plus a few other oneshots. I'm just unsure if I should bother posting given how pretty much no one read my last fic. Makes me wonder if I should just switch back to original work again after all.
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Date: 2015-03-13 07:58 pm (UTC)I'm happy that you made it back safely :D
I know it was rough for you in Japan so I hope now you will get some much needed rest. I feel you about Lycaon's last live. I wish I could go but yeah I know that's not going to happen. ;___;
There are so many rumors going on about them breaking up, ugh, it's so irritating. I wish I knew, the fact that they did get along so well has me ever sadder. What if they decide not to continue music at all? But I will support them no matter how broken my heart is.
Aww ;___; I hope you choose to stay with us! Everyone is leaving the jrock fandom, it'll break my heart to see you go but I understand completely. I try to read everything you write. But I know just even one person is not enough :(
<3
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Date: 2015-03-14 01:45 am (UTC)Me too.
I'm honestly feeling a lot better now that I'm home. It's sad that I had such a bad experience in a country I love... I wish I could go to their last live so bad but I'd have to sell an organ to do that given all the debt I'm in. I hope they make a DVD for it at least so that all the fans who want to go but can't will still be able to see them. Ugh yeah since none of them bothered to tell the fans the exact reason why they're breaking up. I really wish they would just to kill the rumors. I'm worried that they'll stop doing music... I really hope they continue in other projects and maybe some of them will work together. They're all so talented and charismatic that it'd be awful if they just took their talent with them and did something else. </3 Lycaon So many people are leaving yeah... it's really sad. I've commited myself to finishing To Love a Vampire and I have my Mejibray, Lycaon, Ryoga, and Nocturnal Bloodlust paranormal series to write too. Once thsoe are done, I'm not sure if I'll stick around. I have a couple mini-series I could write and some one-shots but I guess I'll see how I feel. Basically every year I tell myself I'll stop writing fanfiction and stick to original work then I get some new idea and keep doing it. So I'm probably here for a while as the characters are fun to play with. Thank you for trying to read all my work. One person is never enough sadly, but at least you always comment.