Hiatus...

[write_my_dreams]

Not that I've been arounding posting anyway but I have to go on a hiatus for a little while.I keep wanting to write but I'm so stressed/frustrated/worried about my current situation that I struggle to do so outside of RP with my friends. Plus my sister and my dad are basically nagging every day about if I've found a job yet. I'm sending out applications but so far I've gotten one rejection and haven't heard anything back from the others. Jobhunting overwhelms me and I get so stressed I have to take a break... and now my sister thinks I'm some useless slacker so she bitched to dad about it so he called and complained to me and told me I have to be more proactive and do more.

Like what I'm doing isn't enough already? So now looks like I have to say goodbye to fun and dedicate myself to finding a job so I can get them to shut up. It's going to be awful and I'll be a permanent ball of stress but guess it's better than being belittled and told I'm not doing enough. I already feel worthelss compared to my succesful sister and this is just making everything even worse.

At least I have Ollie during these horrible times. Started crying as soon as I got out of the shower and went to pick him up and cuddle him... He gave me lots of puppy kisses until I was choking out laughter.

Also, annoyingly, my mom checked my credit card statement for me and freaked out about my VIP Gazette ticket. At the time of buying it I knew it wasn't the most responsible choice in the world because I didn't have a job yet. It's April 29 so the though tis that I'll have a job before then, I can easily pay it off, and I'll have something to look forward to. Ever since I left Japan and got home I've had very few things to look forward to. Just another week like the one before of feeling like crap all the time because I can't find a job, I'm saddled with debt I feel like I'll never be able to repay, and add that to the usual issues... I need something to look forward to.

Comments

[hamhamheaven.livejournal.com]

Job hunting is SO stressful! After I graduated, my father harassed me about how my job search was going. He kept saying things like "You have to treat the job hunt as a 9-5 job" and "Be more proactive". (He kept suggesting I apply for things that clearly listed they only wanted people with 5-10 years of experience...as if that wouldn't be a giant indication that I couldn't even be bothered to read their list of requirements.) Then about two years ago, he was laid off and had to start looking for new employment. BOY did his tune change! Suddenly, he realized it wasn't nearly as easy as he thought it would be.

If you need something to prove to your dad and sister that you aren't slacking, try making up a spreadsheet where you list everything you apply for, the date you applied, and what response you got if any. Usually, all it takes to shut people up is a little proof. Good luck!

[write_my_dreams]

It's absolutely nightmarish. Ugh that's absolutely ridiculous. Couldn't he see what the requirements for those jobs were? It sucks that he was laid off but I'm glad he ate his words and realized how difficult the job situation is in this economy.

I'll have to try that. It can help me keep track of what places I'm applying for too.

[kyoselflove.livejournal.com]

Yes you should take a break and relax. Job hunting seems to be overly stressful and awful ;-;

Even so about buying the gazette ticket, you're right. You need something to look forward to! That's what life is all about, having fun and enjoying. You can't do that if all you do is stress out, even though a job is important...I'm sure eventually it will come to you and everything will be fine ^^

Good luck!~

[write_my_dreams]

It's utter hell. I absolutely hate job hunting because without fail, I'll find a job that looks great and I dare to get my hopes up and I work hard on my cover letter and application... then I never hear back. Rinse and repeat. I'm even applying for useless jobs and still don't hear anything back.

Absolutely. I don't regret buying that ticket because I know I'm going to have fun that day and it's something I'm in dire need of. Yeah here's hoping so. Can't take another year like last where I was unemployed forever, then had an awful job I hated, then was unemployed again.

Thanks