Blood and Memories KeixSho

[write_my_dreams]

Title: Blood and Memories
Author: write_my_dreams 
Pairing: Kei x Sho
Warning/Disclaimer: Nothing to warn about. Gackt owns Moon Child, not me.
Rating: PG
Chapter(s): 1/1
Genre: Light angst and romance
Summary: Kei comes home after feeding and finds Sho asleep on the couch, just like when he was a kid.
Author's Comment: I've been feeling nostalgic and in a Moon Child mood. I wrote this yesterday in English class and fixed it up today. I was going to post it tomorrow since I posted another story today, but oh well I'll spam my friends lists and do it anyway.

 

Kei entered the apartment he shared with Sho, shutting the door behind him. He could hear the sounds of Sho’s gentle breathing and relaxed heartbeat coming from the couch where Kei found him curled up, fast asleep and still wearing his day clothes. Kei considered waking Sho up and sending him to bed, but hesitated. He looked every part of the monster he was. His shirt was stained with his victim’s blood which was also in his hair, on his skin…

No, he couldn’t let his lover see him like this. He wouldn’t. Kei went into the bedroom to pick out some clean clothes before locking himself in the bathroom. He peeled off his bloody shirt, tempted to throw it away so he wouldn’t have to face the crimson stains when he did laundry tomorrow. He didn’t though. No point in wasting shirts.

Kei finished undressing and tossed his clothes in the laundry basket before stepping into the shower. He turned the water on, a soft sigh of contentment spilling from his lips at the feel of the hot water against his skin. Kei grabbed the body wash and squeezed some out into his hand, thoroughly scrubbing his skin to remove every last drop of blood. Satisfied that his body was clean, Kei turned his attention to his hair. As he rinsed out the shampoo, he wished it was possible for the water to wash away his shame as easily as it had done with the soap.

The vampire sighed as he shut off the water and reached for a towel. He hated this so much. He hated feeding, hated how the monster in him took over whenever he killed for blood, hated how he had to drink the blood of others like some parasite. At least Sho hadn’t been with him tonight. Kei always felt the worst about himself whenever Sho was there as he fed because Sho could see him for the monster he truly was – even though he didn’t believe Kei was one. There was a part of him that hoped that someday Sho would become so frightened by him that he would leave. It would be for his own safety after all. But Sho had never left, and even though there were times when Kei wished he would, he knew he wouldn’t be able to handle losing Sho. He’d brought happiness back into Kei’s miserable life.

Kei pushed his dark thoughts away as he dried off and got dressed, focusing on the mundane ritual of getting ready. He hung up his towel and brushed his teeth, erasing the taste of blood and replacing it with the minty flavor of his toothpaste, before leaving the bathroom.

 “Kei?” Sho was sitting up on the couch, blinking tiredly. “When did,” he interrupted himself with a yawn, “you get back?” Seeing him like this reminded Kei so much of the child Sho had once been. He’d lost track of how many times he would come home and see Sho sleeping on the couch or curled up in Kei’s bed, waiting for him to return.

“Not long ago.” The vampire tensed as Sho stood up and came over to him. He dodged his lover’s attempt at an embrace, stepping back to put distance between them. He disliked touching Sho after feeding. He always felt like he would taint him somehow, that Sho would lose his innocence by being around him.

The youth sighed. “Kei, it’s all right. You don’t need to distance yourself from me every time you feed.”

Kei changed the subject. “Go to bed, Sho. It’s late.” It was almost four in the morning. He wanted Sho to go out during the day, not stay trapped inside with him and operating on a vampire’s schedule.

“I’m not a child,” Sho huffed, pouting as if he were one.

Yes you are. Sho was still so young, and sometimes Kei saw the little boy that had found him in that alley all those years ago. He couldn’t deny that Sho had grown though. He’d become a handsome man that Kei hadn’t been able to resist, but Sho was still so naïve and trusting… just like he’d been when he was younger. His faith in Kei had never wavered, not even when the vampire had lost control and bitten him. He shuddered at the memory. Sho’s undying trust in him frightened him. It was dangerous, so very dangerous, for Sho to trust him this much. Kei knew he should have left long ago, should have left when Sho was strong enough to protect himself, but he hadn’t. And now he couldn’t. Kei was in too deep, and he loved Sho too much to let him go.

“Still, it’s late,” the vampire insisted.

 “I’ll go to bed if you do too.”

“I will later.” He couldn’t handle lying next to Sho in their bed tonight. Not after he’d killed a man for his blood earlier.

Sho frowned. “Then I’ll stay awake until you’re ready to sleep.”

Kei snorted. “You’ve been saying that since you were a kid, but you fall asleep every time.”

“I’m older now! I can stay awake with you,” Sho insisted.

The vampire didn’t believe him, but wasn’t in the mood for a fight. He’d been too snappy with Sho lately because of his “diet”, and he didn’t want to have another argument. “You can try.”

Sho sat down on the couch again, frowning a little. “Kei… when you fed, did you satisfy yourself? You’re not thirsty anymore?”

Kei flinched at the questions. “Yes.” He’d satisfied his bloodlust – for now.

“Good. You starve yourself so much… it makes me worry.”

“You shouldn’t worry about me, Sho.” I’m just a monster.

“Don’t say that.” Sho reached for his hand. “You’re my lover, it’s impossible not to worry.”

Kei pulled his hand back. “Still.”

Sho sighed as they fell into silence, Kei too burdened by his own self-loathing and concern for Sho to have a conversation right now.

 

*   *   *

 

A faint smile tugged at Kei’s lips as he glanced at the couch and saw that Sho’s eyes were closed again. So much for staying awake. The vampire moved his lover into a more comfortable position and draped a blanket over him before leaving the living room. It was almost dawn, and he should rest too.

Kei lay down on the green cot he often slept in when he couldn’t handle sleeping next to Sho. He tossed and turned before settling into a comfortable position. Sleep evaded him for a while, but Kei eventually dozed off and fell into dreams drenched in blood.

Comments

[kurrren.livejournal.com]

Oh I was just gonna reply to this on my email but I thought, hey why not leave a comment instead! XD I think it was really good and sweet, it's good reading a MC fic again! I had almost forgotten how much we used to love doing Kei and Sho hahah. I think it's awesome (as usual) and it's not too much angst, it's at a good level with everything 8D So yeah, great job darling!

[write_my_dreams]

*gasps and falls off my chair* YOU were going to reply to my email? What has the world come too! Haha thank you though.

It is! It felt good writing one again too. Yeah same... we had a lot of fun with those. Thank you :D

[esstellionn.livejournal.com]

I love it, as always ^^ :D

[write_my_dreams]

Happy to hear that!

[b-sim.livejournal.com]

Gah, you pull off bittersweet stories so well. ♥

I think you captured Kei's character extremely. It's really the simple things that make him so in character in this fic, like wanting to throw away his shirt but deciding not to since it's wasteful, and how he hoped that the shower could wash away the shame as easily as it did the soap. It's stuff like this that captures him for him, I think. Great job. ♥

[write_my_dreams]

Thank you :)

I'm glad to hear that! I was worried I might have messed up since I haven't written anything in the Moon Child universe in quite awhile. Yeah I thought those were very Kei-ish. I need a Sho action to go with your Kei one, haha. I'll use pervy Gackt instead

[gacktaddict1330.livejournal.com]

Like always, you've done an amazing job my dear :3
You're a wonderful writer, and you always keep them in character which makes for a great read ^~^

[eadwine63.livejournal.com]

yay MC!!! ^_^
you do so amazingly well with bittersweet stories...
And Kei was so nicely written. He's TOTALLY in character. It's tiny things like wanting to wash away the shame, tossing away the shirt, not sleeping next to sho.... that make him so much more Kei..
But I also felt like it wasn't over... :( like there HAS to be more at the end. maybe you cut it off a bit too quickly or something.
but it was good!! don't let the stupid criticism influence you xDD

[write_my_dreams]

Indeed! I'll watch Moon Child again soon and see if it inspires me
Thank you, I do enjoy writing them
Yeah I was worried I would mess Kei up since I'm rusty when it comes to writing him and I haven't seen Moon Child in about a month, but I still made him seem like Kei.
The last part does go by quickly, but I thought it was best to just end there since Kei's not really in the mood to talk, and Sho's still tired. Also I wasn't sure what else to add

[eadwine63.livejournal.com]

well, I would have ended it there too, but I just felt like the moment came too soon xD

[write_my_dreams]

Haha you probably just didn't want it to end xD

[write_my_dreams]

Thank you :)

Aww, again thank you for that. I do try to keep everyone in character

[love-teddies.livejournal.com]

awwww. so sweet. kei should think better of himself.

[write_my_dreams]

Thank you. He should, but we all know he won't

[lunafair.livejournal.com]

YAY!
A Moon Child fic!!! *—*
and a sweet one too X3
Love it X3
*gives cookies*

[write_my_dreams]

There hasn't been much of them lately
Thank you :)
Oh cookies... I will cyber-break my diet, haha *eats cookie* Mm yummy

[annui.livejournal.com]

Psst...I read ur Muncha fic :p because I'm in MC mood too recently, blame my cell's wallpaper :D
Just read it now btw, I always missed stuff in lj *sigh*

Well, when my MC box arrived maybe I will into it much more XD

[write_my_dreams]

I need to watch MC again soon.
Haha want me to just post the link in an IM window so you know it's there?

Yeah I'm sure you will

[annui.livejournal.com]

want me to just post the link in an IM window so you know it's there?

I don't know about that, recently I never touch my laptop for messenger n others because it had minor trouble, but maybe I can checked it from my cell? *never try this one,so I dunno how it works*
PM me? The LJ notification seems work again and I always checking my email :)

[write_my_dreams]

Oh I see. I think you can, I never do since I'm glued to my computer
I'll see if I remember XD

[kaosah.livejournal.com]

Very well done! You have gotten the mood down perfectly! ♥

[write_my_dreams]

Thank you, it was fun getting back into Kei's head

[a_deux_vitesses.livejournal.com]

I regret not being able to read this earlier, it's a wonderful fic! I love how you portrayed Kei's character and it has a perfect amount of angst to it~ And I'm not sure exactly why, but I love the last line especially.

[write_my_dreams]

Thank you :) I was worried I'd be rusty with Kei since it'd been awhile, but I had fun writing him. It seemed very fitting for Kei. I have another MC fic to write, just need to finish some other things first