A Soldier's Dream: 7/12
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write_my_dreamsTitle: A Soldier's Dream
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Pairing: Gackt x Hyde (Dream only: Tetsu x Hyde)
Genre: AU
Warning/Disclaimer: Nothing to warn about. All I own is the story... although I wish I owned the characters.
Rating: PG
Chapters: 7/12
Summary: After guest starring for VAMPS, the costumes Gackt and Hyde wore haunt Gackt in his sleep and inspire a vivid dream.
Author's Comment: Good news: this chapter was really easy to write! I wrote the rough draft yesterday and did my editing today. Bad news: this chapter is short. But I guarantee Chapter 8 will be longer.
Gackt entered Hyde’s clearing with a heavy heart, knowing that the ghost would be angry and upset with him for leaving. Hyde had been abandoned so many times that it killed Gackt to force him to go through this again. He wanted to stay and continue to help Hyde, but he couldn’t disobey his orders. If he remained here he would be discharged from the army, and he couldn’t leave You and Jun-ji to fight without him.
“Gackt!” Hyde welcomed him with his usual smile. “I didn’t think you would come back so soon. Do you have a free day?”
“Yesterday was my free day. I’d planned to come here and spend part of it with you, but I was in town for too long and didn’t have enough daylight left to visit.”
Hyde looked disappointed. “You won’t be able to stay long?”
“Unfortunately no.”
“I hope you can stay longer the next time you come here.”
“I’ll do my best to stay longer.” Gackt shouldered his gun and took the incense sticks out of his uniform. “I don’t have flowers for you today, but I’ll bring them the next time I come.” Whenever that is. He set the sticks in front of Hyde’s grave and lit them, watching the thin ribbon of smoke rise above the stone.
“Gackt.” The soldier turned around and saw Hyde frowning, arms crossed over his chest.
“What?”
“You’re keeping something from me.”
Gackt sighed and wondered what to tell Hyde first. He had bad and worse news to give him and either way Hyde would learn of being abandoned. “I’ve been assigned to a new post. My unit leaves today… I left base so I could say goodbye to you. I’m so sorry, Hyde. I didn’t expect this to happen.”
The ghost’s eyes narrowed. “I should have known better than to trust you. Everyone breaks their promise to stay with me and leaves me in the end. Why should you be any different?” The temperature was slowly dropping as Hyde’s anger affected the clearing, making it feel more like winter than summer.
“I’m not like them.” Gackt sought to pacify the ghost before the chill became deadly. “I’m going to come back and I’ll continue to help you.”
“Why should I believe you? You’re leaving me!” Hyde snapped.
“Have I broken a promise yet?” Gackt replied. He had kept every promise he’d made to Hyde and unless death took him in battle, he would return to this forest and continue to do whatever he could to help Hyde leave this world behind.
The clearing grew warmer as some of the irritation faded from the ghost’s face. “You have not, but you’re still leaving me.”
“I will come back. I promised I wouldn’t go home until I’ve done everything I can to help you.”
Hyde still looked wary. “And where is your friend? You said you’d try to bring him with you the next time you came to see me. I only see you here.”
“I couldn’t convince You to come with me. After he learned what you’d done to your murderers, he didn’t think it was safe to come here. I told him that you wouldn’t harm anyone, but he didn’t believe me. I’ll try to convince him otherwise.”
Hyde frowned. “Tell You that he need not fear me. My murderers deserved to die, but I would never harm anyone else. I told you this the last time you were here.”
“I know,” Gackt said. “I believe you… but You is careful. He worries too much.”
“I doubt I’ll meet him then if he is so reluctant to come here.” Hyde sighed and settled down on the grass next to his grave, studying the weeping willow that Tetsu had planted for him. “Have you learned anything else? You look as if you have something to say, but don’t wish to tell me.”
Gackt started and wondered how Hyde could read him so easily even though they’d only met a few times. Sometimes You, who had known him for years, had trouble reading him. “I went to the cemetery and the records room. I didn’t think anyone had tended to your parents’ grave in years so I brought You with me and we left flowers and incense at your parents and Tetsu’s parents’ graves. No one had visited either grave in years.”
Hyde sighed heavily. “I should have been there to leave flowers and offerings at my parents’ grave. Tetsu’s parents were always kind to me and treated me like another son. I would have cared for their graves as well… if I could have.”
“I thought you would have.”
Hyde managed a smile. “Thank you for tending to their graves.”
“No one’s grave should be abandoned.”
“Mine will be until you return.” The ghost sighed again. “What were you looking for in the records room?”
“I wanted to find information about your murderers. I found two articles about them, one taking place shortly after you killed the first three and another that was written two months later. A cause of death was never determined and the trial for your murder was due to their deaths. A second article was written after the trial was concluded and the remaining killers were arrested. They served a sentence of twenty-five years. That’s why you never saw them, Hyde. They were in jail.”
Hyde scoffed. “A sentence in jail isn’t enough. They should have been executed.” He smiled wickedly. “But I got to one of them. I wished I had been able to kill the last one, but I could never reach him.”
“I’m sure he’s dead by now.” They’d had a similar conversation the last time he was here, but Gackt didn’t see how the other man could still be alive.
“As am I.” Hyde frowned as he looked at him. “There’s something you’re still not telling me. What else did you find in the records room?”
Gackt chose his words carefully. He knew this would both enrage and upset Hyde and was already bracing himself for the chill that would come. “I asked You to look through newspapers from five years after your death. Every paper has a section devoted to weddings and births… and there was an article about Tetsu in the weddings section. He married a woman named Ayana and left this town and painful memories behind to start a new life with his wife.”
Hyde’s reaction was as expected. He froze, a combination of shock, pain, and anger warring in his expression. “Tet-chan… left me? He married a woman and left me, the one he promised to love forever?” The temperature was dropping rapidly and Gackt’s breath misted in front of his face. “He promised to come to my grave every day, to bring me flowers and talk to me, but he abandoned me for a woman? He PROMISED!” Hyde shouted, clenching his fists. “How dare he break every promise he ever made to me and abandon me. He held me in his arms as I was dying and promised that he would never forget me, that he’d never leave me, that he’d never abandon me… but he broke every promise,” he said bitterly.
Gackt shivered, teeth chattering from the icy temperature of the clearing. “I’m s-sorry H-Hyde.” The words were weak and an apology for what Tetsu had done would do nothing to ease Hyde’s pain, but he felt like he had to say something. He would have embraced the ghost in comfort if he was alive, but such a gesture was impossible.
Hyde wrapped his arms around himself, head bowed as he rocked back and forth on the grass. He would be crying tears of rage and pain if he were able to do so. The temperature continued to drop and Gackt backed away from him. It was too cold and frost was appearing on the grave, his uniform, and the leaves of the willow as Hyde’s emotional pain drained all the warmth from the clearing.
“Hyde! You h-have to c-calm down. You’re f-freezing me.”
The ghost raised his head and saw Gackt shivering uncontrollably as ice continued to appear around them. Gradually, the temperature began to rise again as Hyde made an effort to control himself. Ice melted and Gackt brushed frost off his uniform, rubbing his arms and trying to get warm again.
Hyde was silent for a few moments. “Was there anything else you found?” he asked, voice devoid of any emotion.
Gackt shook his head. “No. He lives in Mayfield now, which isn’t too far from here. If I can I’ll go there and see if I can find out what happened to him.” Tetsu might have had children, and if one of them was still alive he could ask them for information about their father and his life.
Hyde looked up at Gackt. “Do it. I want to know why he broke every promise he made to me.”
“I will.” Gackt drew his gun again, examining the weapon to ensure that the ice hadn’t damaged it. Thankfully, no harm had been done. The gun was what kept him alive in the forest and it would have been too dangerous to leave with a faulty weapon. “I need to return to base now. I’m sorry to leave you with such bad news, but I thought you would want to know what happened to Tetsu.”
“I always wondered why he left.” Hyde slowly unclenched his fists. He was still angry, still hurt, but seemed to be feeling a little better now that he knew the truth. “I don’t know what’s worse… knowing that he left me freely or not knowing what happened to him.”
“I think it’s always better to know the truth, no matter how horrible it is.”
“You’re right. Be careful at your new station, Gackt. And make sure you come back. I’ll never forgive you if you break your promises.”
Gackt smiled faintly. “I wouldn’t forgive myself either. I’ll be back, Hyde. I can’t tell you when because I don’t know the answer to that myself, but I promise I will return. I won’t be like Tetsu and break my promises.”
Hyde winced and looked away. “I thought he would be true to his word, but I was wrong.”
“Someday we’ll figure out Tetsu’s side of the story and then you’ll know everything. Goodbye, Hyde. I’ll be back.”
“Goodbye,” Hyde said sadly. Gackt waved in farewell before turning and leaving the clearing. He didn’t know what life at his new station would be like, but he knew he wouldn’t stop thinking about Hyde until he’d returned to this forest.
Author:
write_my_dreamsPairing: Gackt x Hyde (Dream only: Tetsu x Hyde)
Genre: AU
Warning/Disclaimer: Nothing to warn about. All I own is the story... although I wish I owned the characters.
Rating: PG
Chapters: 7/12
Summary: After guest starring for VAMPS, the costumes Gackt and Hyde wore haunt Gackt in his sleep and inspire a vivid dream.
Author's Comment: Good news: this chapter was really easy to write! I wrote the rough draft yesterday and did my editing today. Bad news: this chapter is short. But I guarantee Chapter 8 will be longer.
Gackt entered Hyde’s clearing with a heavy heart, knowing that the ghost would be angry and upset with him for leaving. Hyde had been abandoned so many times that it killed Gackt to force him to go through this again. He wanted to stay and continue to help Hyde, but he couldn’t disobey his orders. If he remained here he would be discharged from the army, and he couldn’t leave You and Jun-ji to fight without him.
“Gackt!” Hyde welcomed him with his usual smile. “I didn’t think you would come back so soon. Do you have a free day?”
“Yesterday was my free day. I’d planned to come here and spend part of it with you, but I was in town for too long and didn’t have enough daylight left to visit.”
Hyde looked disappointed. “You won’t be able to stay long?”
“Unfortunately no.”
“I hope you can stay longer the next time you come here.”
“I’ll do my best to stay longer.” Gackt shouldered his gun and took the incense sticks out of his uniform. “I don’t have flowers for you today, but I’ll bring them the next time I come.” Whenever that is. He set the sticks in front of Hyde’s grave and lit them, watching the thin ribbon of smoke rise above the stone.
“Gackt.” The soldier turned around and saw Hyde frowning, arms crossed over his chest.
“What?”
“You’re keeping something from me.”
Gackt sighed and wondered what to tell Hyde first. He had bad and worse news to give him and either way Hyde would learn of being abandoned. “I’ve been assigned to a new post. My unit leaves today… I left base so I could say goodbye to you. I’m so sorry, Hyde. I didn’t expect this to happen.”
The ghost’s eyes narrowed. “I should have known better than to trust you. Everyone breaks their promise to stay with me and leaves me in the end. Why should you be any different?” The temperature was slowly dropping as Hyde’s anger affected the clearing, making it feel more like winter than summer.
“I’m not like them.” Gackt sought to pacify the ghost before the chill became deadly. “I’m going to come back and I’ll continue to help you.”
“Why should I believe you? You’re leaving me!” Hyde snapped.
“Have I broken a promise yet?” Gackt replied. He had kept every promise he’d made to Hyde and unless death took him in battle, he would return to this forest and continue to do whatever he could to help Hyde leave this world behind.
The clearing grew warmer as some of the irritation faded from the ghost’s face. “You have not, but you’re still leaving me.”
“I will come back. I promised I wouldn’t go home until I’ve done everything I can to help you.”
Hyde still looked wary. “And where is your friend? You said you’d try to bring him with you the next time you came to see me. I only see you here.”
“I couldn’t convince You to come with me. After he learned what you’d done to your murderers, he didn’t think it was safe to come here. I told him that you wouldn’t harm anyone, but he didn’t believe me. I’ll try to convince him otherwise.”
Hyde frowned. “Tell You that he need not fear me. My murderers deserved to die, but I would never harm anyone else. I told you this the last time you were here.”
“I know,” Gackt said. “I believe you… but You is careful. He worries too much.”
“I doubt I’ll meet him then if he is so reluctant to come here.” Hyde sighed and settled down on the grass next to his grave, studying the weeping willow that Tetsu had planted for him. “Have you learned anything else? You look as if you have something to say, but don’t wish to tell me.”
Gackt started and wondered how Hyde could read him so easily even though they’d only met a few times. Sometimes You, who had known him for years, had trouble reading him. “I went to the cemetery and the records room. I didn’t think anyone had tended to your parents’ grave in years so I brought You with me and we left flowers and incense at your parents and Tetsu’s parents’ graves. No one had visited either grave in years.”
Hyde sighed heavily. “I should have been there to leave flowers and offerings at my parents’ grave. Tetsu’s parents were always kind to me and treated me like another son. I would have cared for their graves as well… if I could have.”
“I thought you would have.”
Hyde managed a smile. “Thank you for tending to their graves.”
“No one’s grave should be abandoned.”
“Mine will be until you return.” The ghost sighed again. “What were you looking for in the records room?”
“I wanted to find information about your murderers. I found two articles about them, one taking place shortly after you killed the first three and another that was written two months later. A cause of death was never determined and the trial for your murder was due to their deaths. A second article was written after the trial was concluded and the remaining killers were arrested. They served a sentence of twenty-five years. That’s why you never saw them, Hyde. They were in jail.”
Hyde scoffed. “A sentence in jail isn’t enough. They should have been executed.” He smiled wickedly. “But I got to one of them. I wished I had been able to kill the last one, but I could never reach him.”
“I’m sure he’s dead by now.” They’d had a similar conversation the last time he was here, but Gackt didn’t see how the other man could still be alive.
“As am I.” Hyde frowned as he looked at him. “There’s something you’re still not telling me. What else did you find in the records room?”
Gackt chose his words carefully. He knew this would both enrage and upset Hyde and was already bracing himself for the chill that would come. “I asked You to look through newspapers from five years after your death. Every paper has a section devoted to weddings and births… and there was an article about Tetsu in the weddings section. He married a woman named Ayana and left this town and painful memories behind to start a new life with his wife.”
Hyde’s reaction was as expected. He froze, a combination of shock, pain, and anger warring in his expression. “Tet-chan… left me? He married a woman and left me, the one he promised to love forever?” The temperature was dropping rapidly and Gackt’s breath misted in front of his face. “He promised to come to my grave every day, to bring me flowers and talk to me, but he abandoned me for a woman? He PROMISED!” Hyde shouted, clenching his fists. “How dare he break every promise he ever made to me and abandon me. He held me in his arms as I was dying and promised that he would never forget me, that he’d never leave me, that he’d never abandon me… but he broke every promise,” he said bitterly.
Gackt shivered, teeth chattering from the icy temperature of the clearing. “I’m s-sorry H-Hyde.” The words were weak and an apology for what Tetsu had done would do nothing to ease Hyde’s pain, but he felt like he had to say something. He would have embraced the ghost in comfort if he was alive, but such a gesture was impossible.
Hyde wrapped his arms around himself, head bowed as he rocked back and forth on the grass. He would be crying tears of rage and pain if he were able to do so. The temperature continued to drop and Gackt backed away from him. It was too cold and frost was appearing on the grave, his uniform, and the leaves of the willow as Hyde’s emotional pain drained all the warmth from the clearing.
“Hyde! You h-have to c-calm down. You’re f-freezing me.”
The ghost raised his head and saw Gackt shivering uncontrollably as ice continued to appear around them. Gradually, the temperature began to rise again as Hyde made an effort to control himself. Ice melted and Gackt brushed frost off his uniform, rubbing his arms and trying to get warm again.
Hyde was silent for a few moments. “Was there anything else you found?” he asked, voice devoid of any emotion.
Gackt shook his head. “No. He lives in Mayfield now, which isn’t too far from here. If I can I’ll go there and see if I can find out what happened to him.” Tetsu might have had children, and if one of them was still alive he could ask them for information about their father and his life.
Hyde looked up at Gackt. “Do it. I want to know why he broke every promise he made to me.”
“I will.” Gackt drew his gun again, examining the weapon to ensure that the ice hadn’t damaged it. Thankfully, no harm had been done. The gun was what kept him alive in the forest and it would have been too dangerous to leave with a faulty weapon. “I need to return to base now. I’m sorry to leave you with such bad news, but I thought you would want to know what happened to Tetsu.”
“I always wondered why he left.” Hyde slowly unclenched his fists. He was still angry, still hurt, but seemed to be feeling a little better now that he knew the truth. “I don’t know what’s worse… knowing that he left me freely or not knowing what happened to him.”
“I think it’s always better to know the truth, no matter how horrible it is.”
“You’re right. Be careful at your new station, Gackt. And make sure you come back. I’ll never forgive you if you break your promises.”
Gackt smiled faintly. “I wouldn’t forgive myself either. I’ll be back, Hyde. I can’t tell you when because I don’t know the answer to that myself, but I promise I will return. I won’t be like Tetsu and break my promises.”
Hyde winced and looked away. “I thought he would be true to his word, but I was wrong.”
“Someday we’ll figure out Tetsu’s side of the story and then you’ll know everything. Goodbye, Hyde. I’ll be back.”
“Goodbye,” Hyde said sadly. Gackt waved in farewell before turning and leaving the clearing. He didn’t know what life at his new station would be like, but he knew he wouldn’t stop thinking about Hyde until he’d returned to this forest.
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Date: 2011-09-27 05:03 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2011-09-27 02:27 pm (UTC)You'll see if he does
Another reason why it's best to post a story once it's done - I thought of an awesome way for Hyde to have killed his murderers... like two days after I posted Chapter 5. Hyde possessing their bodies and forcing them to kill themselves/each other in painful ways. It would have been the ultimate revenge >D
And You would definitely be telling Gackt to stay far away from Hydeno subject
Date: 2011-09-28 12:56 am (UTC)DUDE THAT'S SO KILLER WHY DIDN'T YOU USE THAT INSTEAD?! :D
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Date: 2011-09-28 02:21 am (UTC)BECAUSE I HAD ALREADY POSTED THE DAMN CHAPTER. And I'd have to change parts of chapter 6 and You would probably tie Gackt up and force him to stay away from Hyde too.
I'm liking the mental image of thatno subject
Date: 2011-09-28 02:29 am (UTC)LOL. Well that wouldn't happened if Gackt didn't tell him.no subject
Date: 2011-09-28 02:33 am (UTC)But You would have found out when he read the newspaper article. Then smacked Gackt over the head for withholding important details from himno subject
Date: 2011-09-27 07:41 pm (UTC)Haha I never thought the next chapter would be posted soon after our chats X)
Thx God Hyde understood why Gackt had to leave, I wish Gackt would come back soon...poor dear Hyde ;__;
btw, I leave sumtin in ur inbox ;D
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Date: 2011-09-27 07:45 pm (UTC)Hyde understands that Gackt has to obey his orders, but he's definitely not happy about being left alone again. Poor Hyde indeed :( He needs someone to visit him more often and keep him company
Thanks! I'll go check it out
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Date: 2011-09-27 11:15 pm (UTC)Poor Hyde :(
Tetsu better had a good reason for breaking his promise... :/
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Date: 2011-09-28 02:22 am (UTC)I know, he's so sad and hurt :(
Indeed! He'll be nicer to Hyde in the next fic I write with them
Or well... it's smutty so he'll really make Hyde feel good XDno subject
Date: 2011-09-30 06:56 am (UTC)I just hope nothing happens to Gackt at his new station, Hyde would be so devestated and hurt if Gackt never came back...
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Date: 2011-09-30 07:38 pm (UTC)Hyde would be crushed if Gackt never came back and he'd probably never trust anyone again
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Date: 2011-09-30 04:14 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2011-09-30 07:38 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2011-10-04 09:47 pm (UTC)seriously... gackt should find a way to make him move on. D: He needs it. Poor thing. Poor all of them.
I don't blame Tetsu, because he needed to move on as well. Even though I dont' know what happened exactly. He might have had a forced wedding or something, but even if it's a marriage out of love... I don't blame him. We need to move on and find happiness again, otherwise it'll destroy us.
but of course it's sad and of course Hyde would be mad because of it. He's a spirit who clings to those emotions. He needs to let go as well.
*group hugs them all*
even though it's Gackt's dream... May their future be brighter!!
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Date: 2011-10-05 04:30 pm (UTC)He's trying!
I know, everyone needs to move on at some point and Tetsu was able to do so since it wouldn't be healthy to cling to memories of a dead lover. No, he loved her so that's why he married her. I agree.
Hyde needs to let go, but he honestly can't. He's been clinging to his memories all this time and it's impossible for him to move on until he knows the full story... and then he has to let Tetsu go. Which will be very hard for this little ghost to do
Gackt would be happy if his dream ended well!
but will it... *evil laugh*