Lover's Blood 4/4

[write_my_dreams]

Title: Lover's Blood

Author: write_my_dreams

Pairing: Asagi x Tsunehito

Genre: AU, drama

Warning/Disclaimer: Vamprisim, Asagi not being himself, some violence, cursing, sexual content. The members of D do not belong to me but the story and universe do.

Rating: PG

Chapters: 4/4

Summary: When a thirsty Ruiza comes to Tsunehito to explain why he and Asagi have been avoiding him, Tsunehito can't stand to see his good friend suffering. He offers Ruiza his blood, unaware of the consequences of sharing his blood with another vampire who is not his lover.

Author's Comment: Last part of Lover's Blood. It's been challenging at times... but it's always nice to post the final chapter. I couldn't handle my usual editing process so only about half of this chapter has gone through the usual process but the rest of it read well enough that only minor changes were necessary. I'll let you get to reading now.

Asagi paused in drinking Tsunehito’s sweet blood as his lover went limp. Now that Tsunehito wasn’t fighting to break free it would be less difficult for him to drink his fill. But why surrender so soon… Asagi swallowed the mouthful of blood then drew back so he could admire Tsunehito’s neck. Normally he licked bite marks to heal them. He wouldn’t tonight though. Tsunehito needed that mark as a reminder of who he belonged to. Asagi pulled away more so he could look at his lover. He frowned as he realized why Tsunehito had stopped fighting him. He’d passed out. The combination of pain and fear on Tsunehito’s face was enough to drive the anger away. Horrified, Asagi scrambled off the bed. The accusations. The rough sex. Biting Tsunehito even though Ruiza had already drunk his blood. Asagi loathed himself as he remembered what he’d done. How could he have lost control so badly that he would hurt his precious lover?

Hesitantly, Asagi approached the bed. Tsunehito’s pulse and breathing were slower than usual. That could be attributed to him being unconscious. Tsunehito was also too pale, which made the livid bruises stand out more. “I’m sorry,” Asagi whispered. His hand trembled as he smoothed Tsunehito’s damp hair back. How much blood had his lover lost? Enough that he should be hospitalized?

Biting his lip, Asagi reached for Atsushi’s mind. He always turned to his former lover when he needed advice. Atsu! He could feel the older vampire was waiting for something. Waiting for Asagi, probably. Ruiza must have spoken to Atsushi earlier.

A sigh echoed through his mind. What did you do to Tsunehito?

Asagi flinched. Atsushi hadn’t even asked if the younger vampire had hurt his lover. He already knew that something had happened. Asagi’s shame deepened. I… I bit him. I was too rough with him and I’ve left bruises.

Bruises will heal. How is Tsunehito doing?

He’s… he’s unconscious now. Asagi focused on Tsunehito then shared his thoughts with Atsushi along with memories from earlier. How Tsunehito had been unsteady on his feet, the way Ruiza had supported him, Tsunehito reaching for the wall for support after Asagi released him… He sighed as he thought of Ruiza. The blonde must have been so worried that Tsunehito would fall. And then Asagi’s furious jealousy had driven him out. Asagi cringed as he recalled the possessive anger. His behavior made him sick. Atsu… should I take Tsune to the hospital? I… I don't know what to do.

Atsushi was silent for a few moments. He’s paler than he should be, but his heart and breathing seem to be fine. I don’t believe he needs to be hospitalized. You know what a human who has lost too much blood looks like.

Asagi knew that all too well.

Stay with Tsunehito tonight. Keep him warm and be sure to give him protein-heavy meals once he wakes up. Does he have a… what is that strange whirring contraption that grinds up fruit and ice… frustration at not knowing the word radiated from Atsushi’s thoughts.

Asagi blinked. A blender?

Yes, blender. I often see advertisements for protein smoothies. He should have some of those too if he’s too drained to eat a proper meal.

All right. Asagi knew Tsunehito had a blender since he’d made the vampire smoothies before. He’d even managed to make a rose flavored one.

Atsushi’s thoughts brushed his again. Physically, Tsunehito should be fine in a few days. Give him plenty of time to rest and make sure he’s eating enough protein. If you are not too angry at Rui-chan… you know he loves to cook. And he feels terrible for biting Tsunehito. Ruiza will help you, if you’re willing to accept his aid.

Asagi closed his eyes. Rui… he had mixed feelings about the blonde’s actions. As a friend, he was grateful that Tsunehito had been so selfless to offer his blood to Ruiza. As the redhead’s lover, Asagi wasn’t happy that Ruiza had bitten Tsunehito. Angrily he shook his head. He couldn’t act like this. Ruiza hadn’t been the one to snap and overreact. That had been Asagi. And he would spend forever making it up to Tsunehito… if the redhead allowed him to stay in his life at all. Asagi had caused him pain before but this was the first time he’d threatened Tsunehito’s life. Tsunehito… would probably decide that it was too dangerous to continue his relationship with Asagi. And he would leave. The thought of losing Tsunehito made him feel empty.

All right. Thank you, Atsu. I’ll contact you if Tsune feels worse.

Take care of him.

I will. Biting his lip, Asagi reached for Ruiza’s mind. Rui-chan, where are you?

At the konbini down the street. There was a wary edge to Ruiza’s thoughts. Asagi flinched again. Now that his closest friend was wary of him, how could his lover not feel the same? What did you do to Tsune?

Asagi lowered his head in shame. It hurt that his former lovers knew he’d harmed his current lover. I bit Tsune. He knew that I was taking too much so he started fighting me. I… I hurt him so he would hold still and kept drinking until he passed out. A-Atsushi thinks Tsune will be all right once he’s had some rest and a few good meals. Asagi took his lover’s hand and clutched it tightly. Rui-chan, I’m so sorry. I was cruel to you and worse to Tsune. I hope you can find it in your heart to forgive me.

Ruiza sighed heavily. You shouldn’t apologize to me. I’m the one who bit Tsune and caused all these problems. I’m so sorry I bit him.

Don't be sorry. Will you get some groceries for him? Atsushi says he needs protein-heavy meals. And that I should make him protein smoothies.

…Do you even know how to use a blender?

I can make smoothies, Asagi protested.

Asagi, I’m saying this because I care. Your smoothies are horrible.

Tsune likes them, Asagi protested.

Ruiza snorted. He pretends to like them because he loves you.

Oh. Asagi sighed as he looked at his lover again. “…because he loves you.” Would Asagi still have that love when Tsunehito woke up? Or had his actions forever alienated the redhead? Asagi kissed Tsunehito’s hand then got up. You’re better with human food than I am. Will you teach me how to make proper smoothies? And help me cook for Tsune?

Ruiza sensed the change in Asagi’s “tone”. You’re afraid he’ll leave you.

How could he stay after what I’ve done?

Because he loves you.

Even now?

I can’t picture Tsunehito leaving you just because you were an ass. He’s been through worse before and he really does love you.

Asagi wasn’t positive. It was best to change the subject. So you’ll come?

Of course I will. Take care of Tsune… I’ll let you know when I arrive.

I will. Ruiza pulled away from his thoughts, leaving Asagi to himself. He needed to make sure that Tsunehito would be comfortable when he woke up. The black-haired vampire grabbed the tissues on Tsunehito’s bedside table then gently cleaned his lover and himself. He threw the tissues out and put his clothes back on. Then went to his lover’s closet. Asagi took out comfortable clothes before returning to the bed. He bit his lip as he saw the ring of bruises circling Tsunehito’s wrists, the bruises on his upper arms, and the ones on his hips. Asagi felt like a monster for doing this to his precious lover. Biting his lip, Asagi carefully dressed Tsunehito in his pajamas. Then he tucked him in, fetching an extra blanket. Tsunehito would kick it off if he got too hot. It was what he usually did. Asagi smoothed his lover’s hair back then kissed his forehead.

“I love you,” Asagi whispered. “And I’m so sorry for hurting you.” He kissed Tsunehito again then stepped back.

*   *   *

Asagi was sitting at Tsunehito’s bedside when Ruiza’s thoughts brushed his. I’m here. Sorry it took so long… I had a hard time finding protein powder.

It’s all right. Asagi stroked Tsunehito’s hair then got off the bed. He left the room, noticing Ruiza on the balcony with a shopping bag in each hand. Asagi quickly went to open the door.

“I bought as many protein-heavy foods as I could find,” Ruiza explained, setting the shopping bags down. He looked up at Asagi, hesitating before stepping forward and throwing his arms around the black-haired vampire’s neck. Asagi tried to keep it together. He needed to be strong for Tsunehito and for Ruiza. But… as Ruiza’s arms encircled him… all his strength deserted him. Asagi slumped down on the smaller vampire and hugged him tightly.

“I’m so sorry I snapped at you…”

Ruiza patted his head. “Every vampire gets nasty when they’re thirsty. And I did give you good reason. It’s bad enough that I bit Tsune…” he trailed off, obviously embarrassed to admit that he’d liked the experience far too much.

“It’s okay, Rui. Really,” Asagi said softly. “I’m not upset with you. What you did… was exactly what any vampire would have done if they’d been in your place. So I’m not angry at you.” He smiled sadly. “It’s me I’m angry at.” He closed his eyes briefly to concentrate on Tsunehito’s pulse and breathing then drew back from Ruiza. “I should get back to Tsune. I… I don't think I should leave him alone.” Despite Atsushi’s reassurance, Asagi was terrified that he’d drunk too much blood. Thankfully he could bring him to a hospital for a blood transfusion. Before these times, Asagi would have had to choose between letting his lover die or turning him into a vampire.

Ruiza gently pushed him forwards. “Stop tormenting yourself. It won’t help Tsune and it’ll only make you feel worse.” He leaned over to pick up the grocery bags then paused, straightening and giving Asagi an insecure look. “Can I… see him?”

Asagi sighed. “I won't prevent you from seeing him. He’s in his bedroom.” He led Ruiza to his lover’s room. Tsunehito was still too pale and hadn’t moved an inch. Ruiza glanced up at Asagi for permission then cautiously approached the bed to get a better look.

“I think… Atsushi’s right. Once Tsune’s had some rest and food he should be fine. Physically. Mentally…” he glanced up at Asagi. “I believe he’ll be fine. As I said, Tsune’s been through worse and he knows you were thirsty. You weren’t really yourself, Asagi. You and I both know that you would never hurt Tsune if you had your wits about you. And I think he knows that too.”

Asagi nodded in agreement. It was true; the only times he’d hurt Tsunehito were when he was biting him. Still, Asagi didn’t dare get his hopes up about their relationship.

Ruiza gently rubbed his arm. Wait until he wakes up before you decide anything, he said, giving Asagi a look before leaving the room. I’ll put the groceries away. Tell me when you want a smoothie lesson.

I will. Asagi got back into bed with Tsunehito. He pulled his lover into his arms and hugged him close, burying his face in the redhead’s soft hair. Ruiza was right; all he could do was wait for Tsunehito to wake up.

*   *   *

It’d been several hours since Ruiza went home. Before he left, he made sure that Asagi could make a proper protein smoothie (it took him a couple tries) and wrote up recipes for simple meals. After the cooking lesson Asagi had gone back to Tsunehito to wait for him to wake up. Since then, Tsunehito had woken up three times but it was generally just to reposition. And once to move Asagi’s hair since it was tickling him. That had been cute. The last time he woke up had been to kick his way free of the sheets and use Asagi as a pillow. Not that he minded. He thought it was cute when Tsunehito slept with his head on his chest.

Asagi glanced down as he felt his lover stirring. Was he waking up for real this time or would he be asleep again soon? Tsunehito stretched then shifted so he could look up at Asagi. His eyes were bleary with sleep. “What time is it?” he mumbled.

“Almost noon.” Tsunehito had worked his early shift yesterday and gotten home around one in the morning. Then Ruiza had visited… and Asagi had come… his lover had slept for almost twelve hours.

Tsunehito stared at him. “What?”

Asagi smiled sadly. “I’m sorry. Ruiza and I drank too much blood so you’ve been sleeping to recuperate.”

“But… noon…”

“I know.” Asagi stroked his hair. “You needed the rest though.”

“I guess I did.” Tsunehito rubbed his eyes. He tried pushing himself upright so he could sit, arms giving out almost immediately. Asagi caught him and helped him sit up.

“Careful.” He wasn’t sure how well Tsunehito could handle moving around today. Or tomorrow. He watched as Tsunehito brushed his hair back, fingers falling to the patch on his neck. The redhead looked confused as he felt it. “I put a bandage on the bite marks,” Asagi said quietly. He’d done it after he’d caught Tsunehito scratching at the marks in his sleep. Asagi had thought about healing them but couldn’t stomach having his mouth so close to his lover’s neck again.

“Oh.” Tsunehito let his hand fall back to his side.

Asagi studied him closely. He was still too pale and looked like he might topple over at any moment. “Are you hungry? Thirsty?”

“A little thirsty.”

“I’ll make you a protein smoothie.”

Tsunehito gave him a wary look. “Are you sure you know how to use my blender?”

Asagi smiled a little then kissed his forehead. “Rui-chan made sure I could.”

“Is he here?” Tsunehito asked.

“No… he went home.” Asagi started to get up but his lover caught his arm, looking like he was about to panic. Worried, Asagi sat next to him again. “Tsune?” he asked softly. “What’s wrong?”

Tsunehito clutched his arm. “I’m afraid you’ll leave me if I let you out of my sight.”

That… wasn’t what Asagi had expected to hear. He stared at his lover. “You’re afraid I’ll leave you?” What would make Tsunehito think that Asagi would choose to leave him?

Tsunehito bit his lip. “It’s what always happens in the movies when a vampire bites his human lover. And I know how much you hate hurting me… even the slightest bit.”

“Oh, Tsune.” Asagi pulled his lover into his lap and hugged him tightly. “I was afraid you would kick me out. That you wouldn’t want me in your life anymore.”

“You’re an idiot then,” Tsunehito muttered. “I need you in my life.”

Asagi couldn’t help but laugh. He’d been so worried that he would be alone again and then Tsunehito was afraid that Asagi would leave… “I’m not going to leave you.” He cupped his lover’s face, meeting his eyes. “I love you so much, Tsunehito. If I left you now…” he sighed as words failed him. Leaving Tsunehito would be drastically different than the way his relationships with Atsushi and Ruiza had ended. Times had been changing, they wanted different things… no matter the reason, the separations had been mutual. But with Tsune… everything was different. It’d be like cutting off a limb and leaving it behind while trying to move on. “I don't think I could do it,” he whispered. “I love you too much.”

Tsunehito leaned against Asagi. “Good… don’t you ever leave me. I’ll chase after you if you try.”

Asagi blushed. That was sweet. “I’d do the same with you.” He nuzzled Tsunehito’s hair. “Do you want to join me in the kitchen then so you can keep an eye on me?”

“Mm.” Tsunehito nodded.

“All right.” Asagi gently gathered his lover into his arms and carried him out of the bedroom. He didn’t trust Tsunehito to walk on his own without falling over. Fortunately Tsunehito didn’t complain. Asagi set him down in one of the chairs, watching as he slumped against the back. He really was drained of his strength. “Tsune… after you drink this… I think we should talk.” Tsunehito had asked him many questions yesterday. Asagi needed to explain himself, apologize at least a dozen times, and make sure that Tsunehito knew that he wasn’t angry with him or Ruiza anymore.

“We have to. You owe me a proper explanation.”

“I know.” Asagi would give it to him.

*   *   *

After Tsunehito had drunk his protein smoothie, Asagi carried him back to bed. It was better that Tsunehito be comfortable and be somewhere where he could easily fall asleep again. He still needed his rest. Once the two were comfortable beneath the sheets, Tsunehito’s head resting above Asagi’s shoulder on his pillow and looking at him expectantly, Asagi began to talk.

“There are several reasons I kept you in the dark. Firstly… I was afraid,” he said softly. “Blood machines were invented in over twenty years ago. The machines enabled me to change my… my diet. I didn’t have to feed from a living, breathing human anymore. I could just drink from blood packs. And I have drunk only from blood packs… except from you… ever since I first tried one. I got so used to being able to live a better life that when the machines were impossible to access, I panicked. I… I hadn’t seen this coming so I didn’t have any blood packs stockpiled. I knew I could go to you for blood if I needed to but you know how much that bothers me. I don't want to see you as my food.” Asagi hugged Tsunehito a little tighter. “Then, as the days passed and I grew thirstier and thirstier, I was still afraid. I was afraid I would bite you. That I would hurt you… like I did. And I… I was afraid to have you see me like that. You have no idea how much I hate myself when I am that thirsty,” Asagi said softly. “I become so… so angry, ready to snap at anything and anyone. Even if it’s my lover.” He glanced at Tsunehito who was listening silently. If he had any questions, he was saving them. “I was ashamed of myself and I didn’t want you to see me like that. So I avoided you for your own safety. As I said yesterday…” he grimaced. “I was trying to protect you.”

Tsunehito sighed. “I understand your reasons. You should have told me though. I would have understood what was happening and I wouldn’t have worried so much. I really… was worried that you might have gotten tired of me since you wouldn’t talk to me and if you did your texts were always so short and you didn’t leave hearts or anything like you usually do.”

Asagi shook his head. “I would never tire of you like that. I love you so much and you brought passion back into my life again. How could I get tired of that? You’re right though. I should have told you and I’m very sorry that I hid this from you.” Tsunehito deserved to know what was going on in Asagi’s life. Asagi wanted the same from his lover so expecting that but not reciprocating was rude and selfish. If this happened again, Tsunehito would be the first to know. He just hoped it wouldn’t come to that.

Tsunehito found his hand, curling their fingers together. “I’m glad to hear that,” he said softly. “Now… your anger with me and Ruiza… was that your real feelings or was that the thirst?”

Asagi made a face. “It’s a bit of both. Biting another vampire’s human lover is extremely rude and on the same level of intimacy as having sex with them. I was angry that you had offered yourself to Ruiza like that. I… I think I would have been even if I wasn’t thirsty.” It was ironic that vampires had such double standards. It was perfectly common for vampire couples to have more open relationships, sleeping with whoever they wanted yet always coming back to their original partner… but no one could bite a vampire’s human. “I… I wasn’t in my usual state of mind though so I was far angrier than I would have been. That’s why I hurt you.” He bit his lip as he looked at the white bandage on Tsunehito’s neck. “After you passed out, I came to my senses and realized what I’d done to you.” He shuddered as he recalled the horror. “”It gave me time to think. I’m still… not overly happy at the thought of Ruiza drinking your blood.” Especially since he’d enjoyed it. “But I am happy that you helped him. I believe he and I would have hurt someone if you hadn’t shared your blood. You’re very selfless.”

Tsunehito blushed. “I’m not…”

“Yes you are. Who else would offer blood like you did?” Asagi squeezed his hand. “How do you feel now?”

“Tired… sluggish.”

Asagi nodded. That sounded like normal symptoms for blood loss. “I wasn’t sure if I should bring you to the hospital or not. I spoke to Atsushi and Ruiza as soon as I came to my senses. They didn’t think it was necessary. What do you think though?” he knew his lover didn’t like hospitals but wanted to know if they should be going or not.

Tsunehito snuggled closer to him. “No hospitals.”

“All right… I’ll stay and take care of you then.” Asagi leaned in to kiss his lover, stroking his hair. “Rui-chan brought groceries and taught me how to cook some meals for you… made sure I could make a proper smoothie.”

“Yours are kind of awful,” Tsunehito admitted.

Asagi laughed. “I wish you’d told me!”

“I didn’t want to hurt your feelings.”

“I’m a vampire,” Asagi said dryly. “I’m not used to cooking for myself. And if I’d known they were bad I would have tried to do better.”

“I’ll be honest about your cooking from now on.”

“Thank you.” Asagi stroked Tsunehito’s hair. “Rui-chan and I made up yesterday. And he wants to apologize to you again…”

Tsunehito grimaced. “I told him to stop apologizing yesterday. Even after everything that’s happened, I wouldn’t change the events of yesterday. I would still offer Ruiza blood.”

“You’ll have to tell him that. I think he’ll come over tonight to make sure you’re all right. And he’ll probably want to cook for you… you know the kitchen is his favorite place.”

Tsunehito chuckled softly. “I should invite my neighbors then. Ruiza likes to forget that I don't have a black hole for a stomach like he does.”

It was true that Ruiza tended to make too much food. But that was mostly out of concern that Tsunehito was so thin. “Is there anything else about yesterday that you want to talk about?”

Tsunehito thought about it then shook his head. “No… you answered everything I wanted to know. And I can tell that you aren’t upset with me for giving Ruiza blood.”

“I’m not.” Asagi leaned down to kiss his hair. “You should get some more sleep…”

“I want a shower first,” Tsunehito muttered.

“Maybe a bath.” Asagi could picture his lover falling in the shower all too easily.

“Fine, I’ll take a bath.” Tsunehito started to get up again but Asagi quickly picked him up. Tsunehito gave him a reproachful look. “You can’t carry me everywhere. I need to make sure that I can walk by myself.”

“You need to be strong enough to get up first,” Asagi said dryly. “And you’re not. So stop sulking and get used to being carried until I know you’re not going to fall over if I let you walk.”

Tsunehito didn’t have anything to say to that.

*   *   *

By the time night fell they had moved to the couch and were watching TV. Well, Asagi was sort of watching TV. Tsunehito was asleep with his head in Asagi’s lap and was far more interesting than whatever was on TV. He smiled as he ran his fingers through his lover’s hair. He was so grateful that Tsunehito had forgiven him after everything he’d done. And that they’d been able to talk about the problems from yesterday.

Tsunehito stirred as someone—presumably Ruiza—knocked on the balcony door. He opened his eyes and looked up. “Mm?”

Rui-chan, is that you?

Yes. How is he?

Your knock just woke him up, Asagi brushed Tsunehito’s hair back. “Rui-chan’s here. Do you want to see him or do you want to go back to sleep?”

Tsunehito struggled to sit up. “Let him in.”

“All right.” Asagi got up off the couch and went to the balcony, pulling the door open. An anxious Ruiza was outside.

“Rui,” Tsunehito complained loudly. “How many times have I told you and Asagi to use my front door like a normal person? People are going to get suspicious if they see you two on the balcony!”

Ruiza jumped then smiled weakly. Tsunehito always griped about them using his balcony instead of the door. Complaints they usually ignored since it was easier for them to get to the balcony than going through the building. “Sorry, Tsune.” Ruiza gave Asagi an uncertain look then took off his shoes and walked past him to get to Tsunehito. The redhead had managed to sit up by himself (without toppling over) but still looked tired.

“Hey, Rui.”

The blonde bit his lip then impulsively hugged Tsunehito. “I’m sorry!” he wailed. “I bit you and I made Asagi so angry…”

Tsunehito sighed in exasperation as he returned the embrace. “I told you to stop apologizing. I’m not upset with you and if I had the chance to redo yesterday, I wouldn’t. I would let you drink my blood even knowing what happened.”

Asagi rubbed Ruiza’s back. “And I’m not angry.” He’d been snapped at for apologizing too much earlier so was trying not to fuss too much over Tsunehito. The redhead ruffled Ruiza’s hair then pulled one arm back to reach for Asagi, tugging him down on the couch. Ruiza finally let him go and sat on Tsunehito’s other side. Despite their reassurances he still looked anxious.

“But…”

Tsunehito shook his head then looked at Asagi. It was easy to take a hint. And these two did need to be alone so they could talk about what had happened. “I’ll see if that new bakery you like is still open.”

Ruiza blinked but didn’t protest. Thank you.

I’ll get you a cookie.

Ruiza gave him a weak smile then turned back to Tsunehito. Deciding to be mindful of Tsunehito’s balcony complaints for once, Asagi left through the main door. He hoped that things would go back to normal between the three of them now that they were able to make amends.

Notes
1) I thought about writing the conversation between Ruiza and Tsunehito but they already got to talk in Chapter 2
2) Lover's Blood was just one part of my vampire series. Tomorrow I'm going to make a poll entry over what I should write next
3) Thanks for reading!
4) Ugh, LJ is being screwy as usual with posting. I put spaces between all the paragraphs and not all of them showed up.

Comments

[faewitchkins.livejournal.com]

Yay! Oh this was so good! I felt so bad for Asagi, what a doting little worrier and then Tsune was afraid Asagi would leave him as well. Hopefully now they won't be so insecure about losing each other. I like how Atsushi comes across as strong and wise, obviously the much older vampire. 'What did you do to Tsune' being one of the first things out of his mouth was priceless, obviously he knows Asagi so well :)

I'm glad that Asagi has forgiven Ruiza and that the three are back to the way they used to be. And yay for Asagi using the front door lol too cute.

This was the perfect way to end the evening. First I was at the USvPanama World Cup qualifier and then I come home to find you posted! All I can say is what a night!

Oh and probably a dumb question, I tried to find your other vampire fics to read those but didn't find them, can you tell me where I need to look in your archive because obviously I'm a dork and couldn't find my way out of a clearly marked paperbag ^//^:

LJ I think will forever be messed up, so much for making it better :/

[write_my_dreams]

Thank you :) Asagi is a loving worrier... he will fuss over Tsune until he's beaten off with a pillow. Tsune has seen Asagi at his worst now and he still loves him as much as he did before so I'd say the insecurities are gone. Unless Atsushi's around. Tsune still gets kind of anxious around him because he and Asagi have been off and on together for about 50 years. That insecurity is understandable! But yes Atsushi is always there to give advice to Asagi and Ruiza if they need it. He does know him so well

Asagi can't stay angry at Ruiza for long :) I'm sure Tsune was happy that Asagi finally used the front door

Aw, I'm glad you think so! Sounds like you had a fun day :)

Oh, the majority of these fics are either in my head or in various stages of completion on my Mac. Everything for this vampire series will be under the tag "to love a vampire" Right now the only fics I've posted are Lover's Blood and the one with Asagi and Ruiza. I did just post a poll asking for ideas of what to write next though.

Yeah, it's pissing me off that I have to jump through hoops to post

[pinpun.livejournal.com]

Thank you of this story. I really liked this one and it was nice to read this :3

Aww, poor Asagi being so ashamed off what he'd done to Tsune, but I'm happy that everything went okay in the end ♥

[write_my_dreams]

I'm glad you liked that :)

Asagi is a gentle vampire so becoming cold and aggressive to his lover is too much for him to handle. He feels very guilty and very ashamed for what he did. Yes, they all make resolutions in the end. They're better now <3

[alizamarie-chan.livejournal.com]

WAW GREAT ^^

[write_my_dreams]

Thanks!

[saurgristiel.livejournal.com]

D'awwwwwww *huggles* That's a nice ending ^_^

[write_my_dreams]

I wanted to make sure everything wrapped up nicely

[love-teddies.livejournal.com]

ahhhhh. so lovely

[write_my_dreams]

Thanks!

[kaiser1103.livejournal.com]

Glad that Tsune didn't need a blood transfusion :p

[write_my_dreams]

He's glad too. He does not like hospitals... even worse is going to the hospital with Asagi since he gets so fussy

That would have been awkward to try explaining

[kaiser1103.livejournal.com]

going to a hospital with a vampire and trying to explain the blood loss would be the weirdest thing ever~

[senshi-of-ruin.livejournal.com]

I'm so glad that Tsune's okay! And that what happened didn't ruin his and Asagi's relationship. Its sweet how he put up with Asagi's horrible smoothies in the past lol! That's true love when you pretend to like nasty cooking! Glad that Asagi and Ruiza patched things up too!

I can't wait to read more in the series!

[write_my_dreams]

So is Asagi! Oh Asagi would have to do a lot worse than this to ruin their relationship. Lol yeah, true love indeed. Asagi and Ruiza have been together for too long to end their friendship like this

Art of Denial rewrite comes first but once I need a break I'll write Atsushi and Asagi's part of the story

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I finally read it! Thank you for writing this :) I'm glad that everyone has made up for the most part.

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Better later than never! Thanks for reading :) Yes, everyone has made amends and they're at peace now

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I kind of have a thing for vampire fics, so when I saw a multi-chap with such a summary, I couldn't resist. I kind of like that when men get possessive and jealous... and oh, Asagi really got mad.. But I felt so bad for Tsunehito who had to deal with his vampire, blinded by rage and thirst, it was like he didn't listen to him.. and that's so, so frustrating when people do that. So it kind of gave a realistic side to it~

But you know, Atsushi trying to grasp the word "blender" made me laugh (and cough as I have a bit of a cold *snorts*). I can SO picture a tall, sexy vampire getting all "what is that thing called...?" xD I really loved that small bit.

Asagi taking care of Tsunehito afterwards was really, really sweet :)

This was good :) I'll have to read more fics that belong to that universe *nods*

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I'm wary of them since there are so many, but if the fic is done well then I'm more than happy to read it. Glad the summary hooked you! Oh me too, I love reading that. Asagi was furious. I know, poor Tsune trying to deal with Asagi when he was in this mood. Asagi really didn't care about listening at that time. Ugh, I know. It happens all the time.

Atsushi's not used to human food so he's not too sure about all these modern inventions. (Feel better!) I wanted to add a lighthearted moment and it was too cute not to pass up.

Asagi's a fusser :) He'll always take care of Tsune

Thank you! If you look under the "series: to love a vampire" tag, that's where you'll find my vampire works in this series. I have the part where Asagi becomes a vampire in progress, I just got really bad writer's block with it. I've gotten Chapter 3 and 4 kind of done though

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I tend not to read works in progress, as many writers tend to get writer's block and never finish them.. I've read way too many fics which have never been finished and it's oh so frustrating...
Let's hope you will find the courage to finish them :)

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I prefer not to read works in progress because, inevitably, I run out of chapters and have to wait for the next one. And there's always the chance that the author decides not to continue writing. Ugh, I know... I hate doing that to my readers but there's no sense in writing something if I've lost the passion to continue it.
Oh, I intend to. I do want to get that part of Asagi's story done

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It's hard to keep writing on something for a long time, but at least, posting and knowing that some people are waiting for the next chapter might be a drive to write.
On the other hand, once it's posted, you can't really change details in the previous chapters. But no one knows it's there and you tend to forget about it if you get distracted too easily, which is exactly my case. Which is why my D'espairsRay boys are still stuck on chapter three and are nowhere near close to getting into each other's pants. And then, there are the fics with weird pairings that no one will read. Pft, but I don't care. Much. *laughs*

I do agree, though, writing just for the sake of writing isn't satisfying and you won't like what you write and it just.. doesn't feel right.

Shall I send huge rose cupcakes to you so that you feel the passion? ♥

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That's why I try to post my multi-chapter fics as soon as I start writing them. Otherwise, it's unlikely that I'll ever manage to finish it.
Exactly :( Ah, that's true. Aw, poor boys XD Stuck for a while. I used to be a snob about pairings but now I'll pretty much read anything so long as I have a general idea of who the characters are.

The writing not feeling right is the problem I've had with Life or Death. It just ends up sounding flat, cheesy, or I look at my document and have absolutely zero desire to write it.

Wouldn't work because I'm trying to finish up the second part of Irresistible Temptations. Rito and Kuina will be angry if I keep denying them the chance to get in each other's indecent shorts XD

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Yeah, you kind of have to start writing and don't let go, otherwise it's very, very hard... (you don't even want to know how many months ago I started that Despa fic..)
These days, I am very, very tempted to read pretty much anything as long as the writing is good. There aren't many good fics I haven't read on LJ and I kind of need to get my fill... (I sound like an addict, don't I? *laughs*)

Oh yes, yes, do write that! I want to read that! The Rose Cupcakes will wait! 8D

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Exactly... but then I end up stressing myself out because I feel like I shouldn't write anything else while I have one fic in progress. It's complicated. I'm guessing it's been a while then?
That's about the same for me. Ugh, I agree. We need more fanfiction! (You do but I'm one too)

I saw you'd posted your Tsuzuku x Koichi and I had read that one! I think I just forgot to comment. I tend to send fanfiction to my kindle so I can leisurely read them without getting distracted. I'll be sure to re-read it and leave you a nice comment this week :)